October 25, 2005, 1:08pm

It's very cold... but many people said it's very nice and it will get colder.

Good enough I got a thermo blanket in Walmart last week. You know, that kind of thing to make the blanket warm with electricity. I simply love it.

When I was in Scotland, well, it's only early autumn in September, Ann would pre-heat the blanket for me every evening. It's warm in the heart. :)

And in the last three years in Hong Kong, my parents had the paranoid of a heater getting fire... no matter what I said. They only read the newspaper about the occasional fire and they would turn off my heater. And they would talk about the news non-stop, non-stop, non-stop. (My dear journalists and media teachers, please, write carefully. You really don't know what people can come up in their heads.)

That way, they used the negative punishment approach. So, I began not to use the heater and they stopped squibbling about that.

Come on, take note about the old type of heater and how people misused them! The sad thing is, critical thinking and persuasion techniques would not work. Their brains don't work. And they don't care if I feel cold. They wouldn't think about an alternative. I'm the problem and the source of problem. I shouldn't feel cold because I'm young. Sucks. F. F. F.

Lydia, I really appreciate that you gave me your heater when I couldn't find one in those stupid shops. When it's sold out and they didn't even know when they'd get more heaters. I'm sorry but I could only have dust on the heater and was in bed frozen all the time. You made me feel warm in the heart... but only in the heart.

Anyways, I have M today!!! I know I'm mad to think about this all the time. But it cost me so much money, time and effort to boil the bitter herbal tea every evening in the last year trying to restore my Yin Yang imbalance. And now, I didn't do much, and it's there! Only 16 days late!!!

No black bitter stuff, no needles. :DDDDD

Self-care is only effective or even possible when I have a non-crazy immediate environment.