September 13, 2006, 2:06am

Five years today, I was in London. Some day I will go back!

My counselor said I need to know to experience my feelings. I block away my negative emotions all the time. My feelings are repressed that's why I have all the intense nightmares. I only express my feelings in dreams where I feel safe to do so. I just have too many excuses not to show my emotions in reality.

So, the first task is to write a letter. To pretend that I'm writing a letter to mom. I don't know. I have been rather obsessed today thinking about this letter. I haven't written even a word yet. I think I may not be able to stop once I begin writing... I have a proposal due this Thursday. I need to revise my first year project... I also need to take the second statistics exam next Friday...