December 5, 2006, 10:22pm

I was trying to be sad for a while last night. I didn't have anything to be sad about in particular. Just that I had an online chat with Twiggy some days ago and she said my anger is preventing me from experiencing the full spectrum of emotions.

It didn't work. I played some sad music but I fell asleep right away. I had some dreams about my high school but I didn’t remember anything. I only remember seeing some faces. That's all. Nothing sad, nothing special.

This is strange. I can be sad reading a novel or watching a movie. But whenever I think about my family, I only have anger. I don’t feel sad at all. Or I will be puzzled about what I should do about them.

I don’t know how to begin. How to make myself sad?