September 24, 2007, 9:47pm

Felt really bad last night. Remember a childhood terror. All I wanted was someone to say, "Everything is OK. We're safe."

Yet, the home environment was not safe. I don't understand. Why didn't they make the environment safer? Why was it dusty everywhere? Why so miserable and helpless? Why not change what they can change?

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Really puzzled about how I get to where I am. So many challenges every single day. Just finished two assignments, a class discussion, and a seminar presentation last week. Sick Friday evening, too stressed out.

Found my high school website by accident. Just read that a classmate is now a music teacher in a Tai Po high school.

She used to look down on me. Well, for whatever reason. She believed she's girly and beautiful. And I didn't have brand names to show off like a lot of them.

A high school teacher in Tai Po? I cannot imagine it. What a boring life, in my standard. Went to a high school in Sha Tin, went to CUHK in between Sha Tin and Tai Po... Then now, she's one KCR station away in Tai Po?

I'm here thousands of miles away from Hong Kong. Being challenged... Got to meet deadlines and learn the single factor model...

Life is great! The trees are changing from green to gold again. Every day is stimulating. Yet, for her, for a person who used to look down on me... she's in Tai Po?

What have I done to make this happen? How do I get here? Where will I go next?

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Mid-term exam next Monday... Take it as a challenge!