This is a remarkable day. I have just realized that my mom has narcissistic personality disorder. It explains why she's doing all these crazy things to me all my life.http://www.behavenet.com/capsules/disorders/narcissisticpd.htm
I was reading leisurely in the library, after the very intensive four-day statistics workshop. Somehow I thought about my mom's lacking empathy might be similar to the narcissistic personality disorder.She met quite a lot of the nine criteria. Lacking empathy, jealous, exploitative... Probably I have been threatening her vulnerable self-esteem with all my achievements. Well, I'm just goal-oriented and I want to achieve. For a long time I also wanted to please her by getting good grades etc. It simply didn't please her at all and I was left to wonder why.
The sky looks even brighter with my discovery. Looks like I got an answer. Finally. Got to move on.
My next phase in my life has begun today, at the Oregon State University. Hopefully the trauma is now behind.Will go to Wyoming next Saturday with a group of international students. :)
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