November 8, 2005, 8:53pm

I went to the infirmary to check my knee in the afternoon. It's just swollen. The doctor said it doesn't seem to have any broken bones. So let's see if it's getting better in the next few days. If not, I need to worry.

So, it's just swollen. I think I have more psychological problems than physical ones. I already emailed my counselor about that this morning. It's like, because of my childhood and all the crazy stuff in my family, I tend to block out my negative emotions. As a coping strategy, it works OK with my sick family that's poking at me all the time. But at times of emergency, it's like, my defense mechanism is making me sort of maladaptive.

Cognitively, I think it's shocking to be in a car accident being knocked down. Yet, I simply don't feel the shock. But this morning when I woke up, I was so tired after a whole night of sleep. It's like, all the shock turned into physical symptoms.

I don't know. I need to see if I can get any help from counseling.

Anyways, I've got my learner permit this afternoon. So, nearly all is set. I just need to find someone to teach me how to drive. I'll be very careful.