March 11, 2007, 1:02pm

This sounds unreal... I didn't want to drive at night. So, my friend said she can drive my car. Her insurance covers that...

But then she broke my car key. The broken end is stuck in the key hole. So there's no way to start the car...

Got to find out how to fix it. Have little idea who to go to...

Probably "tai sui" is beginning his work. I just wonder why Chinese horoscope is so ridiculous. How come people born in the same year are having conflict with "tai sui." What is tai sui? What kind of gods tai suis are? How come they are conflicted? I didn't initiate any conflict with any of them. I just happen to be born some point in time.

How can a humble human being conflict a god? What did I do? Just because I was born? That's ridiculous. I was just a sperm and an egg. I didn't produce these two cells. The two cells happened to meet then some how I turned into a ball of cells. I didn't even have consciousness until my brain was developed. And what did I do when I was born? I was simply breathing! What conflict can that be. So, tai sui, did I conflict you because I took a breath when I was born? Nonsense.

These Chinese god stories are just ridiculous. Gods don't do good to people and they worry about people confronting them. What can I do as a human being to harm them? And now if tai sui exists, I'm blamed for conflicting them in the first place that's why I'm having bad luck. Come on, give me a reason how I am having conflicts with tai sui.

Damn it. Tai sui, you listen. You gave me a horrible time when I was 24. I was not beaten. I will fight again. And tai sui, you tell me what you do as a god. What good do you ever do? If there's any conflict, let me know. Be open. Talk about it. Negotiate.

You suck if you give me bad luck just because you have the power to do this. What sort of a god you are as tai sui? What you do is to give people bad luck because you think they're having conflict with you? You don't even try to reconcile. I don't even know what I did to make you feel violated.

Did I put a plane into a skyscraper in your city? Then you started a war against me? I don't even know what I can do to harm you! Tai sui, you're crazy. You have a personality disorder. You just happen to do people harm. You are anti-social. You have conduct disorder. You are a psychopath.

Then you select a group of people based on their year of birth. You label them as the people violating you, just because they're born in a particular year. You justify your crazy behaviors to give people bad luck. Some serial murderers kill people with particular characteristics and may believe these people deserve to die too.

You suck. Any life got to begin with a birth. This is worst than having the snake to tempt Adam and Eve to eat the fruit of wisdom. At least they actually did something. At least there's a choice to eat and not to eat.

For you, tai sui, there's no choice at all. Even a fetus has his or her brain developed normally cannot control whether he or she can be born safely. Once I'm born, I'm bound to violate a tai sui simply because I was born.

You suck. Either you need to try counseling, or you should be put in jail. How come there can be gods doing harm to people every year?

You will not fail me.