November 17, 2006, 11:05pm

I was watching One Liter Tears from youtube. Leanne, thanks for your recommendation!

I am really impressed. Is it the reality in the Japanese high schools? The school has its own indoor basketball courts! How come Hong Kong students are so deprived? Or was I deprived? What about other Hong Kong schools? What facilities do they offer for students?

The schools here have a lot of outdoor places for students. My friend's grandson in Florida can play football in his junior high school. I also have a huge gym here. It's simply not comparable to the small gym rooms in CUHK, HKIEd, or PolyU.

Why would Hong Kong students pay such high tuition fee but don't get anything close? Why Hong Kong students study so hard for so many years, in the end, those employers would label students as having low language ability or lack of international vision? Low and lack, compared to who? Against what standard?

Who will be able to evaluate the previous generation of Hong Kong university students? Were they having high language ability? Did they have international vision? Who knows?

All bullshit. They just want to demean Hong Kong students. They simply want to pay less salary. I don't believe in those bullshit. Asian students work much longer hours. Asian students also do well based on a lot of international standards.

Hong Kong doesn't produce as many university students as many other Asian countries. My Korean, Japanese, and Philippino friends said for sure they have at least 50% high school students going to the university. It was less than 18% when I went to the university. Those suckheads were already bullshitting about university graduates not having good English.

Who didn't have good English? Who can say I didn't have good English with my IELTS, TOEFL, and GRE scores? These are international standards.

I'm having a conspiracy theory. Those Hong Kong employers want university students cheap. They try to make up a story about how the students don't measure up. So the students don't value much. They want to pay less. This is pathetic.

This is so much like my mother. Always scolding. Nothing constructive. I am always useless whatever I do or not do. If I have any achievement, it's either nothing or I am arrogant.

If Hong Kong students really don't measure up, OK, what's the point? So, are you going to come up with a plan to help students improve? I have never read any of those employers giving any suggestions.

They're like my mother. She wants to destroy me. She wants to fail me and step on me. She won't try so at least she won't fail. If I try and she does whatever to fail me, I'm a loser, she doesn't lose. And she is successful to fail me.

I had my desk in the balcony. The washing machine was 1.5 meters away from me. I had the wet clothes and underwears hanging above my head. It's the highway outside, the trucks, buses, and motorcycles were roaring. The TV's on until 10pm. When it's finally turned off, I would have a relatively quiet time to work, usually until 2am. The neighbors were playing mahjog...

Here, most often it's the college students making noise having parties.

All Hong Kong students have a success story, no matter they get into the university or not. What kind of school environment does Hong Kong provide for most students? And we can still score far above the international averages?

I simply don't see why so many Hong Kong students with such high quality should be stuck in Hong Kong working over 12 hours a day and getting disrespect. It's relatively few Hong Kong students going overseas to work or study, compared to other Chinese students. Most of them apply to go overseas after their undergraduates.

If circumstances allow, why not leave the sickening place that won't appreciate our effort working in school all these years? Why do we have to have a UST student killing himself?