November 27, 2006, 8:03pm

It's the second last group counseling session today. Got to find out a way to keep in touch with these nice people. :)

I think the close-to-perfect family in One Liter of Tears may exist in the world. But not every family can do that. If such a family is ordinary and commonplace, it doesn't worth it to put it in the TV or to publish about it in a book.

Many of my friends in the group therapy have a troubling family. I alo read too many tragic stories in interviews of people with psychiatric disorders. Those are really sad sad sad stories that should be put in the TV. Instead of glorifying family love, it may be educational to know how family hurts.

I read about individuals who were hospitalized for schizophrenia. Not from books but from interview data. Then, the next thing they knew, they could not contact their families anymore. The families changed the phone number. They moved. The individuals in need were abandoned. They didn't know where to go after hospitalization.

Probably we have the ideal, the prototypical family in our mind. Probably we project our desire to have such a perfect family in the TV. I doubt if such a perfect family exists. But I'm sure child abuse and discrimination exist in many families.

I don't think my family would take care of me if I got a deadly disease. My mother blamed me for being crippled. She also scolded me a million times during Sars to make sure I was wearing the surgical mask. Yeah, she locked herself at home, not going out. So I would be the person going out to contract Sars and kill her.

I'm trying to work on my next paper on parental differential treatment. That is, parents favor one kid over the other. Why would they do this? I can imagine parents like one kid better than the other. But why my mother can be so mean to me? She's trying to destroy me.