October 21, 2006, 1:04am

So, I met my counselor again today. She gave me the narzar last week, the Turkish symbol for good luck. It's for my car. :)

Today, we talked about all those experiences I felt unfair when I was small. She said, I can be angry. Yes, I'm angry. I'm still angry after all these years. I hate all those suckheads I met. So, she said I'm doing good. I was always calm to talk about all those trauma. It's good to express my feelings.

I don't know what to do. The past is the past. I cannot change my experiences. But she said, I was hurt. It's OK to be angry. She would be angry too if those things happened to her. But I can change how I look at the past. OK, let's see.